What a difference a year makes! This time last year I was preparing to celebrate Christmas in the Philippines with Candy and Viola, Bethel’s Chinese teachers. They wanted to experience a real American Christmas, just… More
We have entered into our first exams of SY 2017-2018. One day of exams are done and the students are beginning their second day as I am typing this. Exams have allowed me a quiet morning of contemplation and headache recovery. I decided to take a few minutes of that time and say hello to you.
A few weeks ago I learned a new word, solane, Bebing had asked me for money so she could order more of it for the house I live in. I asked, ” what is solane?” After all, I do want to become fluent in the language! She struggles for a moment and ends up saying, “you know gas, solane.” “OH!” I said, “for the stove?” she tells me, yes and I learned that the word gasoline has been morphed into the Waray language as solane. 🙂 I love finding these words where I can clearly see how they came to be!
I feel like a broken record because every time someone asks how I am doing my answer is the same, ” I am tired and overwhelmed”. I am often tempted to say fine but I know that my friends and family back home love me and are not looking to hear, “fine” they are looking to hear how I really am. I am loving being here but I am basically trying to work 2 full-time jobs and it is exhausting.
I have talked things over with Margie and she is helping me get my keel righted in the water. If I can get it right, or should I say once it is righted, I will be fine. There are just some beginning of the year things that overwhelmed me. Added into that a huge pile of late work from my kids and you have a capsized Ms. Camarro.
I started off this school year learning that a friend back home lost her battle with Cancer. It isn’t that I wasn’t expecting the news, I was, it is I just wasn’t expecting it so soon. I am thankful she is with her husband again and my prayers are for her family to find comfort in the arms of the Lord. I will miss our little chats and can’t wait until our next one.
I am blessed by the support system I have here and the friends that have lovingly encouraged me through this season. I so often see how God uses others in my lift and through seasons like this, it is so clearly visible to me.
On a completely different note
Due to the changes in admin fees and the differences in the way things work less money than expected ends up coming to me. I do suspect that some of that will come to me in the form of a tax refund. I also suspect that I needed to line item items out that are not strictly for “salary”. Right now everything is listed as salary and I have nearly the same amount of money per month as I did last year.
My friend Melissa has asked me if I want her to have a Trades of Hope facebook party to help raise money. I said yes because I would like to have funds to draw on to help people and right now the amount over and above what I need is small and leaves little for things I might want. Like, taking someone out to eat, buying a book, or providing lunch for a student that would go without. Melissa will be raising funds for other worthy organizations besides helping me. Please consider visiting her page for your Christmas shopping needs 🙂
Can you believe it is almost time for Mid-Quarter Grades? This means I am half way through the first semester already! I feel like I am still getting my feet under me and it is time for progress reports.
The Learning Lab is getting up and running and my 5 classes are also well underway. The juggling has begun! I feel a bit like I have two full time jobs but I am juggling it all. My goal is to be able to document correctly this year for The Lab and I have been busy setting up the necessary forms. It is kind of nice to be the one that decides what hoops I have to jump through instead of being obliged to fill out stacks of paperwork. I can put the needs of the kids above the paperwork.
Little Rainbow Joy has decided that she wants to work in The Lab with me. This week she was helping the students learn about the part of speech
I have started a Social Skills Club for the upper elementary and my goal is to do the same with the lower elementary. I am also in the process of doing reading assessments on the elementary school. I have identified a few students that need some support. I am also excited that I have started helping a student that has working memory damage learn how to retrain his brain.
These school related things are all good but the things that I am really excited about are the things I see God doing in me and through me. I am doing a Bible study with one of the 12th grade students and she is so eager to learn how to keep God at the center of her life even after she leaves Bethel. Over the summer, she learned how hard it is to stay connected to God when you are not connected to people who share your faith.
Some of the teachers and I have started a Purpose Driven Life group. I am the Grandma Moses of the group but that is intentional. The Chinese teachers are eager to learn about God as are some of the new young teachers. I intentional invited people in their age range. Tacloban Bible Community has started a PDL campaign and Paul Varberg is making videos to aide understanding and facilitate discussion. Our first meeting was a lot of fun. We learned a little more about each other and about why we need to know our purpose.
One of the first things I did when I arrived was to plan a teacher fellowship night. We played games and music. We laughed together and enjoyed each other’s company! I also have taken some time to show Candy and Viola around the area. Buko by the beach is a must as is a trip to see the MacArthur memorial.
Because my supports have been generous with me I have been able to be generous with others. I helped someone cover part of a hospital bill after an accident. I was also able to help someone who lost his job over the summer. His daughters needed a few things for school and I purchased them. I learned today that he has found a new job and our prayers for him have been answered! I have also set up and lunch tab for a student that was not eating lunch due to lack of money. I also met up with a former student that left Bethel last year. She agreed to come visit me when Paul was visiting her father. I took her out for a meal and a long talk.
Bethel is growing! While I was in the States Paul purchased some additional land adjacent to the school. The new land will eventually be more classrooms so we can have more than one of each grade level. It will also have a larger cafeteria. The parents are happy to hear that more parking is also in the plans.
My class took a few minutes to wish my dad a happy birthday!
I have arrived, recovered from jet lag and set up my classroom all in the span of less than 3 weeks. I have also sort of unpacked my room so that it is livable. Everything is away and off the floor if not unpacked from its bag or box. I’ll take it at this point. 🙂 The important places are unpacked and ready, my classroom and The Lab.
I have also resumed attending my life group and was able to celebrate my birthday with them. I also celebrated with my co-workers. The custom here is for the celebrant to provide a treat for their friends. I asked my friend Adette to cater a simple lunch for the teachers and staff of Bethel on my actual birthday. It was actually very welcome because we all worked very late due to parent orientation that night.
I am getting to know my housemates. We are from very different cultures and we have had fun exploring together and learning about each other. They have shared an interest in learning about God and we have had several good conversations about Him. We are going to read Mere Christianity together once things calm down and settle into a routine. We did have fun watching War Room together too.
August is the month of language and so in these pictures you will see the students wearing traditional costumes. I am wearing a shirt made out of pineapple tree.
After a few small delays and a lovely time hanging out in the Doha airport for 8 hours I arrived in Manila. Exhausted but happy to have the bulk of my trip over. I was picked up by my friend Andy and greeted with the warmth of friendship and lively conversation that I have come to expect from him. I can’t tell you how nice it is to be met like this after such a long journey. After a good night sleep I took my last flight and finally arrived in Tacloban. Margie met me at the airport with the words welcome home. Words that I have heard a few times since I arrived and words that are so true. While I am not looking forward to tasks like unpacking I find that it has been easy to slip back into my life here. Like I have just returned from a short vacation. The long layover in Doha was worth it because it meant I was able to be with my church one last Sunday.
For the benefit of friends and family that are unsure when in July I will be back in the Philippines, I am still in the states and safe. There was an earthquake that affected the school a few hours ago. I understand power is out and people are shaken. I have not heard of anyone who is hurt or damage to buildings. Praise God! Please lift those affected in prayer.
I love these people last year they were stranger and then they became co-workers and now I can proudly call them friends. You have all blessed my life and I am so thankful for each person in this picture!
School ended and I arrived state side in May, 3 days later my friend Kim had back surgery. I am staying with Kim and her family to help them get through this time of healing. My two favorite short sticky have enjoyed having me with them full time and I certainly have enjoyed catching up on hugs!
Kim is doing better and able to be left alone, which means I am starting to catch up on my work and start preparing for next year. Which leads to answering the question what is my plan for next year. I do plan to return to Bethel International School for school year 2017-2018. The plan is for me to teach 4 classes, have a homeroom and to continue developing a program to meet the needs special needs of some of our students.
Last year was a crazy crazy year and parts of it were overwhelming but it was also so amazing in many ways. I loved seeing what God did through me. By the end of the year I could really see the fruit of my work and I also was sad to leave because I have budding friendships that I cannot wait to see what God does with them.
My budget for next year is $14,500.00 and my church has already held a big pocket and raised most of my support. Last count I was at $10,500.00. There are some changes to how to support me which will be outlined below. The reasons for the increased budget is to account for somethings that were not included in last years. Teaching supplies and portable internet for my classroom have been factored in. I have also added language lessons for me. My attempts to learn Waray were not as successful as I had hoped. I think having a teacher and someone dedicated to practice with will help! I look forward to being able to converse with my the families and my friends in their language. I also would like to have some discretionary funds to help people in need.
The big change is in how my support money will be handled. Last year First Love International handled my support and while they have been great there is another option now and it is one that makes sense for me.
Converge has created a short term missions track for teachers going to BIS. This track takes into account the unique needs of people willing to make a one or two year commitment to BIS and Converge has reduced their fees to make it a viable option for missionaries. There are two reasons why this is the best option for me. The first is my intention is to commit to a much longer service at Bethel and will go through Converges training to become a career missionary. The second is that my Church is affiliated with Converge, as my Pastor said, “it is better to keep it all in the family.” My church is more comfortable having my support handled through Converge. They are also more comfortable knowing my well being is in the hands of people they know and work with on a regular basis.
PLEASE DISCONTINUE ANY AUTOMATIC PAYMENTS TO FIRST LOVE INTERNATIONAL
My project number: 210128 should be included on all payments made to Converge for my support. Payments can be sent to
First I would lie to thank everyone who is contributing to my support for this next school year. I can’t tell you how much it means to me that people are stepping up and praying for me and helping me answer this call. I will be setting up a web page through Converge and payment can be made through there but it will be a couple of days until that is set up.
I have done a fair bit of supplies shopping and I had the pure joy of spending some time with the owner of Linda’s Storytime in Monroe. She helped me create a wish list of book. I plan to ship a couple of boxes with supplies and books. If you would like to help fill the book wish list let me know!
I spent some time with one of my fifth graders this morning. He wants to submit a story for the magazine the is putting out this year. He worked for two hours with me organizing his idea. It is a very exciting story!
I spent the afternoon and evening with one of the 10th graders we decided to spend Halloween doing this!
What I did today was spend some time with two very funny and smart young ladies. We let our silly sides fly.
One of my favorite David Crowder Band songs is “All I Can Say” The bridge goes like this:
“I didn’t notice You were standing here
I didn’t know that
That was You holding me
I didn’t notice You were cry’n too
I didn’t know that
That was You washing my feet”
This song sums up how I have been feeling over the past month. Between having a high fever for over a week and then being better but exhausted for a week. Then the following week having a upper respiratory bug. In the middle of feeling very poorly my aunt died.
Being so far from home while my family was going through this trying time was difficult. I am thankful for Margie’s friendship because that has really helped me keep my focus and releasing the repressed emotions.
I find that I have spent a great deal of time with the lyrics to this song running through my head as a constant prayer to God in order to make it through my days. “This is all that I can say right now and I know its not much”
In October the people of Leyte remember the Battle of Leyte, the day during WWII where General MacArthur landed here liberating the Philippines. MacArthur brought with him troops and some of those troops died in the effort. Charles Goldberg was one of the young men fighting in that beach battle. He was injured and went on to live a long life. He died last November and his last wish was to return to Leyte and have his ashes spread where his comrades in arms lost their lives.
Paul wrote Mr. Goldberg’s name in the sand and poured the ashes into the letters. Paul then spread some flower petals around the name. While waiting for the waves to wash the name away Paul shared the story of the gentleman’s life and read a couple of poems. The ceremony was witnessed by the committee that arranged Leyte Landing Day. There were construction works near by and they stopped and respectfully witnessed the events. The military band played Taps and saluted a fellow soldier.
I cried because while I was standing there I was thinking about my aunt how I would not be with my family for her funeral service. There was something cathartic about participating in Charles Goldberg’s send off in lieu of my aunt’s.
I was already feeling homesick and missing my friends and family. I miss being a part of a community where I am so well known and understood. I miss big salads and coffee with friends. I miss being around people who unconditionally love me and who always have a hug for me when I need one. As you might expect these feelings have intensified and I am finding myself opting to spend time alone when I don’t HAVE to be interacting with others. It is good for my introverted soul to be alone and seek comfort from God.
Habakkuk 3:17-19New International Version (NIV)
17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
19 The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.
My joy is not dependent on my circumstances but on my God, He called me here and I serve with a joyful heart even while I grieve.
I do have many more pictures to share but that is a challenge for another day. After Mr. Goldberg’s ashes had washed away we stopped by the pool of the hotel that shares the beach we used. We enjoyed the view and a little of the floor show before heading home.
Rainbow Joy made it to school on Friday, she has found my backpack a bit overloaded earlier in the week and opted to stay home rather than get squeezed into an over crowded pack!
The first class she met was my CF 7 class, CF stands for Christian Formation and 7 is because they are in the 7th grade. The class is studying wisdom, AKA Proverbs this year. The class loved meeting her and she loved meeting them. The first thing they did was teach her how to solve “cubes” The girl in the front right is an amazing puzzle solver. She can solve them in seconds without looking! Next Rainbow Joy read to them from the bible. She felt sure this is what Thad and Ada would want her to do. They gathered around close to hear what she had to say.
Next we had Academic and Professional Writing with Grade 11. Rainbow Joy was a bit nervous meeting them because they are the oldest students in the school. They look more like grown ups than children. Once she met them it was a different story.
Then we had fifth grade language. Hopefully this weekend I will be scanning and sending their letters to American.